I know it's too late for the Jive Pad to be open, but just wanna
say this : elindra, I think that it's a really good thing that
you're frank and open about discussing your fears about having a
kid because too many people have children when they aren't ready or
aren't fit to be parents yet and in the end, everyone, including
the poor kids, suffer. 
I grew up a latchkey kid. When I was younger, grandma and grandpa
looked after me. Honestly, because I was a terribly ultra sensitive
kid, it was hell because I was always torn between my parents and
my grandparents. I was also dismayed
that mom couldn't be around most of the time cause she was a
working mom and when she got home after work, she would sometimes
not be in the best of moods nor would she be patient enough.
Dad too, oh boy, did
he have residual anger issues brought home from the workplace!
Till today, even though I don't want to think about it, some things
still inadvertently stay with me. That's one of the huge reasons I
choose not to have kids because what if they turned out to be as
sensitive as I was? It's hard enough raising a kiddo, but when that
kiddo is a sensitive one, man, it'll drive you crazy! 
I shudder when I think of unfit couples raising children.
So I really applaud you
for thinking things through and being honest. 
